Frustrations and Triumphs
I have won the battle against the cockroaches; against the spiders and the ants. I have learned to live with the choking dust and the bats and mice that keep me awake at night. Benadryl and chemical warfare are newfound friends. I have turned another year older and at least this one will be different, no way to complain of being stuck in a rut. I will spend all of my twenty fifth year here in Togo, and I am beginning to see it as a life, a home. I miss the mountains but Togo is far from bereft of beauty- the hills, the distant brush fires that light up the night sky, the extraordinary sunrises and sunsets, beer that costs a dollar and counts as two… I can get used to this.
Dog drama
I finally got myself a pooch. Something I can smother when lonely and force to love me no matter what, a friend to follow me around and talk to with an understanding that sometimes feels more authentic than all the conversations of the day. His name is Jack, like Kerouac, which apparently is no good because here you don’t give a dog a man’s name. I tell them, oh well I guess he is just bizarre comme moi… I caught him eating a guinea fowl outside the compound on the way to the garden the other morning. Very bad, dogs get eaten for less ‘grave’ behaviour here. Mia, the dog in my compound that I tried to adopt initially is the source, ‘elle vole!!’ says everyone, she steals, meaning she kills chickens and guinea fowls -people’s dinner. This is the reason why it didn’t work out between us. I wanted to save her from her fate but she wouldn’t take to me (until after I got Jack and then she became insufferably jealous and territorial) and I got tired of everyone telling me what a bad dog she was; that I needed to get a puppy, a male, because after they give pups the females are ‘dirty’ and no good. So now she is really in for it, seeing as how Jack is too small to kill a full grown fowl, she is the immediate suspect and the next day she was chained to the orange tree being prepared to be ‘taken out to a farm in the country’ which I think is a euphemism maman told me to make me feel better after I kept asking if they were going to kill and eat her. Bye bye Mia, I will miss your mischievous little mug.
Brief side note: On New Years I had a very interesting conversation with a local crippled man who came by to drink, chat, and pick up his 25f cadeau. The subject was about eating dogs, a very common practice here but apparently there are a few loose guidelines. You don’t eat your own dogs, you eat the ‘bad dogs’ like Mia that come from ‘the city’ or somewhere else. And according to this man, and confirmed by similar conversations other volunteers have had, it is unacceptable for women to eat dog, it is only for men. I attempted to probe him for an explanation but to no avail. He just said that women can eat chicken, guinea fowl, goat and sheep, and beef if afforded and available. Interesting.
So as I told everyone in village I wanted to start ramping up for ‘work’ projects, (meaning other than integration work), in January after the New Years celebrations. I had my reasons, other than that I needed more time to integrate and understand the village dynamic (and still do), everyone was preoccupied by harvest and parties. True to my word I held my first community meeting last week and tried my best to feel that it was not a complete disaster. I am tired of people asking me for money, exhausted to be exact. I felt that while they have had a volunteer here for the past two years there was much misunderstanding as to what the Peace Corps is and what my role is in the community. I wanted to clear a few things up, starting with the money, and let people know that I am here to work for them but patience and good organization is paramount to utilize our time and resources best. I spent the entire day before at the marché going around and verbally promoting the meeting for the next afternoon. I employed the town crier, Victor and I went over the outline of my agenda… nobody showed up. After about twenty minutes of V. going around and shouting at everyone around town to gather up we got about twenty or so people to congregate under the baobab and listen to what I had to say. The meeting itself went well; V. did an excellent job translating into Lamba, I cracked a few jokes, we had good response and questions asked. I should have felt better about it but couldn’t help but feel a bit slighted, considering not even one person from my compound showed (after multiple promises of attendance) and the following hour was filled by people asking me to buy them drinks and one further request for a personal loan. I have decided to resolve to cold refusal; it seems to be the only way.
One of my other January goals was to start my garden, being a natural resource management volunteer and all. The day after the meeting, V. had asked the guys from the gardening groupement to show up and help me clear my plot and dig my beds. I bought 2000f of tchouck beer and asked Madeline (V’s wife and my closest friend) to make up some lunch – both expected for working for someone here and one of my favorite perks to helping out with harvest – Togolese picnic style. While the men burned off the dead sorghum and elephant grass stocks and used pick axes to break up the impenetrable land, and while still others set up and searched for fence posts for me, I busied myself (unable to do much else and feeling like I was in the way) with starting my compost pile under a nearby tree right next to the lake, a perfect location. I was hoping for it to be intriguing or bizarre enough to the gardeners for it to function as a sort of technical demonstration, to an extent it worked out but follow up is needed.
The reason why Ataloté is able to have such impressive gardens/gardeners is because as V. puts it ‘during the time of my parents’ someone had helped create a man made lake at the base of the hill behind village where the water from rainy season has created a small lake that recedes during dry season but does not dry up. The gardeners, all farmers as well who have nothing to do during the dry season until prepping their fields just before the rains, use the land where the lake recedes to garden and the groupement, aside from organizational issues, is impressive. They definitely know how to grow but I hope to implement some easy techniques for them to spend less money and increase yield. The people here are very motivated and I think if I approach things right they will be very receptive. One example of this is when I showed V. how to double-dig his beds, a labor intensive technique that is especially helpful for gardening here in poor soil because the aerating effects is one less struggle for the plants. He absolutely got it and couldn’t be more excited about it. It felt great working with him in his garden and since then he has used the technique in all of his empty beds and the cabbage and lettuce we planted in them have been growing fast! Yeah direct results!
Now I have been double-digging two to three beds a day in my plot, it is back breaking work but I love spending the early mornings at the garden, it is so quiet and more than a bit therapeutic. Jack comes and we kick it. I have transplanted some lettuce and hopefully will start soon with tomatoes, onions, pumpkins and squash!